Thursday, December 6, 2007
Exciting Times
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Learning to Fly
For example, I have never in my life had to really watch my money before. I've never been a big spender but a budget wasn't really a necessity. But God is using this to make me more tender to him. He's making me trust in Him like my Majestic Father who freely gives to me as I need it. That doesn't mean I spend like crazy and just chalk it up to 'God will provide', but like Jesus says in Matthew 7:7 "ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Granted that doesn't mean God will always give us what we want or open the doors we want opened but He promises to give us good gifts.
Furthermore, God has been assuring me in my prayer time. So often I find it hard to pray deeply. I think that if my mind begins to wander while in prayer that somehow I will be sinning against God with my mind. But from reading Genesis 17 it reminded me that God is a God of covenants. He has promised to continue dwelling in me in His Holy Spirit by Grace in Christ Jesus.
Furthermore, God doesn't want bad things to happen in our lives. He exists as our Comfortor, not our tormentor as sometimes I am duped into confusing the two. God is a God of love and compassion, mercy and, in this season especially, a God of grace. The Bible says He is holding back his wrath against us for the time being. God is still just but we are in a time of Grace. I just have to remind myself of his promises daily. We are filled with the fullness of Christ (Colossians 2:9), all believers now and to come are God's chosen people (Colossians 3:12) and that we can have peace in Christ (Colossians 3:15) and that we are truly blessed in Christ Jesus (Ephesians 1:3). And one thing I have begun to learn lately (partly due to Israel Houghton and his gospel music) is that being blessed is a permanent state of being in Christ Jesus. Being blessed has less to do with physical means and more in being supremely called and loved by Christ Jesus. Indeed all men are blessed by Christ Jesus in the promise of salvation. His salvation is all encompassing and is given freely to ALL. "Therefore there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:1) God's blessings and peace to you all as He has truly blessed me this week with His quiet comfort and peace.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
He never gives up on us
I was reading the story of Peter and Jesus today when Jesus asks Peter three times if he loves Him. I never got it until today that Jesus asked him three times because thats how many times Peter denied Jesus. But the interesting thing is that Jesus left it at that. I'm sure it had to hurt Jesus tremendously that the person whom he called "the rock" denied him in his hour of utmost need. But Jesus simply affirmed that Peter loved him and left it at that. He didn't pull out a litany of things Peter has done wrong or make an example of him before the other disciples. HE FORGIVES HIM!
But let this be a lesson of true forgiveness. Jesus not only never mentiones it again, he tells Peter that he will build the church upon him. Jesus offers true forgiveness, where he moves past the fact and even gives Peter new responsibilities and trusts him. I was really moved by this in that Jesus goes beyond forgetting our sins and stupid stuff, he trusts us with more if we genuinely seek Him. If we truly call ourselves his followers he will not only forgive, but bless us more. Praise be to God! This was encouraging to me in light of my reflections on all my mistakes and unfaithulness to God. Indeed God is proved righteous and loving and just in all he does. He doesn't keep us down, he honestly desires for us to succeed, which is something I often doubt in myself. I thank God for this assurance as He alone can give me the confidence I need to live beyond myself. To live for Christ and to live with integrity and perseverance and love. Glory to God in the Highest!
Monday, October 29, 2007
Prayers as reformation
I never understood that verse until now. I never wanted that verse to be true until now that I feel the joy that comes with the routine trials that accompany faith. I've followed Christ for almost eleven years now and I've faced trials before, but never ones that I prayed for like this. I prayed for these trials and it's drawn me closer to Christ so I indeed may live deep within my heart. Because the our idea of blessing isn't always Gods idea, and while comfort and peace is good, we must face confusion and wrestle with life to understand Christ and His sacrifice and blessing fully. I pray I may accompany you in your troubles as you have accompanied me in mine and in doing so we will be the Church Christ designed us to be! God bless you this week my brothers and sisters in Christ!
A Franciscan Benediction
May God bless you with discomfort
At easy answers, half-truths, and superficial relationships
So that you may live deep within your heart
May God bless you with anger
At injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people,
So that you may work for justice, freedom and peace.
May God bless you with tears
To shed for those who suffer pain, rejection, hunger and war,
So that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and
To turn their pain into joy.
And may God bless you with enough foolishness
To believe that you can make a difference in the world,
So that you can do what others claim cannot be done
To bring justice and kindness to all our children and the poor.
Amen
Been A Long Time
Seriously though, my thought life has been consumed with "what if's" and "what comes next?" and "why?" I know its human nature to visit these thoughts from time to time but I've decided I'm done with living in the past, in what could have happened, or what may happen. Good grief I'm tired of it. Frankly it sucks.
Christ didn't call me to live like this. He calls me to live a life a faith DAILY. I don't know what will happen but I'm reminding myself to put my life in his hands and let him deal with it. He offered to take it upon himself and I'm shooting myself in the foot by not letting him. It's funny how God gave me this verse today. I was telling my buddy about whats been on my mind and this verse popped up on his computer on a bible widget. So I'm gonna meditate on Lamentations 3:22-24 and I encourage you to as well. We don't know what tomorrow holds, but there is enough prayer and work in the Lord to be done today on the behalf of those we care about, those in need, those God lays uniquely on our hearts. So lets be proactive despite all that goes on and live!
Lamentations 3:22-24
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."
Monday, October 1, 2007
Turn of Events
But those inhibitions weren't realized today. I distinctly remember stopping at Coffea Island for a latté and leaving, still with that unknown sense of dread. But suddenly as I stepped out of the coffee shop I felt a rush of peace and joy only known in Christ's Spirit. As I felt the wind against my person and the cool air announcing the comming of autumn, I felt a peace and joy in my soul that only God provides. It was as if God was nullifying my anxieties with His perfect peace and Love. What can man say to this other than "thanks." While I'm not usually the one to point out God in the rainbow or the beauty in the sunset, I felt that somehow God spoke to me through His Creation and His Spirit in a masterful yet simple way that only God can achieve. He truly is God and I am not.
And yet I'm fully aware of the rollercoaster of life; one day you're up and the next you're down. But I will thank God for this one day where nothing could stiffle this joy of the Lord, the joy of being alive and in community with others who love me as I love them. Indeed, these are the days to cherish, because they remind us in our worst times that God never leaves us or abandons us. Truly He is the Omniscient, All-Powerful God, Father, Lord and Closest Confidant. Glory to God for His Love that never fails, neither yesterday, today or tomorrow. Glory to God in the Highest, Amen.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Taking Back Control
I realized this today playing soccer where I constantly found myself lacking the confidence to simply enjoy a game. Instead I doubt my self and my abilities. I've found this is just a byproduct of me not believing in what God is and can do in me.
However, I'm convinced that I'm not alone. Too many of us live in fear of our past, our skeletons that hide in the closet, our rejections, our anxieties, etc. The Bible calls us to a holy fear of God, ie a deep respect for Him. But it never calls us to fear this world, because as Christ says "fear not for I have overcome the world!" Let us hold onto that promise and claim the victorious, but not necessarily easy life that Christ offers us! I've decided to stop my doubting. When I make these concessions to doubt in hopes that other problems will be aleviated, I'm fooling myself and crippling the hands God has given me to use, and to use well for His Glory. So, let us stand unified and tell Satan "No More!" and live our lives in an unflenching and assured hope in Christ Jesus our Risen Lord!
Monday, September 24, 2007
confusion and correction
Truthfully I can't think of one person I've ever met who loves the division of the Church into these stupid denominations. Its only because our Church "leaders" can't get over themselves and their unflenching committment to a certain theology, rather than Christ himself, that we have these dumb denominations. And yet I do encourage people to know what they believe and why on these dividing issues. But we should be dogmatic about the things that form the core of our beliefs only. Lets not let politicians divide us because they only want a vote and could care less about the purpose of the Church or its ethics. We should never be more loyal to a politician or political party than we are to our fellow brothers and sisters in the body of Christ. So lets be like the Church of Acts that shared everything, cared for everyone, and excluded no-one. For Christ accepts everyone to come as they are, He just wont let them stay the same once they see the truth of His love. No one can stay the same in the face of Love. Amen!
Much love and respect-
J
"Happy the pure in heart, they shall see God" Matthew 5:8
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
The Roving Wild
There is a quiet roar in my soul tonight,
I try to keep it controlled,
But today the dam burst.
Like a lion roaring from his cage,
So this force purged itself of its chains,
Even for just an instant,
I felt its Fury,
His indignance at the lurid injustices,
And the forces that perpetuate them,
And I fear the hurricane that rages deep in my soul,
The charge to drop my hands,
And hurl myself headlong into the streets of despair,
Because only the sick need a Doctor,
The medicine I hold deep in my bosom,
Is best served on the cracking streets of heartache.
The Doctor is in,
And I am His hands,
Now free to roam,
A hurricane without warning.
Follow the breadcrumbs from the One I love,
Crack this code,
And unleash the cacophony that is my heart,
A deafening roar,
This roving wild.
My heart (mi corazón)
But I have only 24 hours in a day and I need a few hours for sleep. This leaves me with a dilemma- how do I spend my time? God I pray you would lead me in wise time management so as t best serve You! And God may this lead to an increased impact on the world around me! I pray people may be touched by Your faith WITH works in me. I pray that people be blessed and touched by my words now. I pray for a change- in Christ Jesus, Amen.
What Happens Next Starts Now
(What I Saw)
It’s not that I don’t know where I’m going,
I just don’t know what happens in between.
The foggy gray patchwork called life sits in the median of a crowded street.
And I wade through the mist in between black and white,
Little appears cut and dry,
Despite the claims of the multitudes,
Because between Heaven and Hell lies Earth,
And while the truth of God is evident,
I thank Him I’m not the one who has to sort out our mess.
(Because of…)
Indeed I stand in the middle of a seven-lane highway
Hoping you don’t hit me,
Knowing you will.
Because Love hits like a Mac truck,
And fragmented love leaves a trail of splinters.
And thus lies my paradox,
Love hurts.
So I’ll count my wounds,
And chalk it up to grace that they aren’t fatal,
Because the heart of love hurts with the hurting,
And cries with the broken heart.
(The Altering Conversation)
Dear God- “Does your heart fracture with the splintering of my mind?
Dear Josiah- “My hands bleed as I pick up your pieces”
Dear God- “O’ Captain my Captain,
-You have my heart”-
(Firing the Rounds)
I’ll bite the bullet,
And chew its steel,
Because my Love wars for me,
And I join the ranks,
To fight for you.
(And Peace.)
_ (my soul) ________